It was time that I’ve updated my Self Care spread in my Bullet Journal. A few years back I started having a Self-Care spread in my Bullet Journal where I’ve tried to establish some healthy routines in times where I felt good. I concentrated on easy things like having some down time in a bubble bath, eat my favourite food and watch my favourite movie but even those things could be too much if I’d be at my worst.
Working on myself when I’m good helped me SO much! It not only made my good phases last way longer, it also helped me to be more gentle with myself in a depressive phase and not expecting to work on myself for a while. I used to do it the other way around. When I was at my worst I looked for ways to establish routines and such to get better but when I was good, I didn’t think about those routines anymore. Establishing those routines when I’m good and it’s easy to work on myself, help me to stick to at least a few things while I’m at my worst. Does this make sense?
Having a place to put down all the things that help me feeling good about myself, really helped me to actually get into those routines and not getting all over the place. A few simple routines to learn to actually stick to some things and see that it really helps my mental health. To establish some discipline. By now, I don’t really need to remind myself to take a bubble bath but this is something that will be on every single Self-Care spread I’ll create J
It took me a while (almost two years) to get to this point but for the last 6 months I finally started to trust myself enough to start challenging myself again. I do trust myself enough to know, that I won’t get overwhelmed by negative feelings if I don’t reach one of my goals.
This is a way to gently work on myself and to help me internalise, that goals are there to work towards to and not expecting perfection from the beginning. This is the magic of Bullet Journaling. All of this was a journey and I can't believe how much I've learned in this short two and a half years. It might sound like a dreading long time if I'd be in the beginning but compared to the last ten years, starting a Bullet Journal was the easiest but most helpful thing I ever did.
But let’s get back into my Spread.
Short Daily Workout:
There actually is no reason for me to not find the time for a short 20min workout every day except, that I’m just too lazy for it. Which is fine for some day but not for most days like it was. And it also it the point where I know I’ll fail. At this point, I don’t workout daily but I manage to workout at least three times a week. If this means, going on a long walk, going to dance class or working out at home with a Youtube Video, isn’t important. I just expect from myself to do something. And I’m working towards to doing it daily.
Pamper Night: Even though this should be an easy thing, I still need to work on that. To have an evening where I truly pamper myself and not “just” have a bath and then get right back into doing some work. I still need to learn how to have a whole evening where I just care about myself without feeling guilty. So this is still on my list.